"" 17 october 2001

. . .ami jani tumi diary ta porcho.. . . ami eo jani tumi kancho . . othocho kanna korar moto kichui ghote nai Nirob. . erokom to ekdin hoara kothai chilo tai na? amra to onek age thekei jantam . . er jonnoi to prostuti nie chilam . .

ekbar mone hoy kaj ta thik hoche na. . protidin tumi amar lekha gula porba ar amake mone korba. . kosto paba. . dukho paba .. ager ghotona gula mone korba . . ki dorkar tmk ato jontrona diar ? abar mone holo. . allah...ato shohojei ami ok amr kotha bhulte dibo? ? kokhnoi na !! karon ami tmk onek valobashtam . .

amar icha chilo agami 10 years er kotha r bigoto tmr sathe amar katano 3.5 years er kotah likhe jaoar.. !! kintu shomoyer ovave eta shomvov holo na. . thak . . emni shomoy mone hoy koto kisu likhte hobe. . otocho likha shuru hoar shomoy kisu ase na ken boloto? ? acha tmr upor amar onek oviman ase . . amar jonno ai shomoy ta tumi chutachuti na kore ektu amar sathe thakte paro na?? onto to je tuku shomoy ami chilam amar sathe to thakte parta? tumi jano tmr mathay budhi koto kom? tarporo ami tmk valobashi . .?ami akhon onek kotha likhbo tmk hasanor jonno. . tumi 1 second er jonno holeo hoyto hashba . . kintu tarpor ager motoi oi kanna . . acha ki hobe kede?

tumi jano ami akhono tmk dekhte parchi? tumi jano ami shobshomoyi tmk dekhte petam ? jokhn tumi kebol amar bondhu chila ? tokhno tmk amar dorkar holei ami amar chokher shamne dekhte petam . . hoyto kokhno tumi nijei chole ashta othoba kokhno amie tmk nie ashtam . .ki ashchorjo vave kante kante tumi amake rater 12 tar shomoy propose korsila ? mone ase? ar ami ki vavei na tmk ha bole dilam . . acha ken bole dilam? ? ami jani na. . amake jigesh koreo kono lav nai . .akhn ar bolte parbo na. . .

ami shob shomoy chetam tmk khushi korar. . tmk surprise diar. . amar khub dekhte icha korto tmr khushi r obak vora chokh duita . . khub val lagto eto khushi hoe jokhn tumi amake joray dhorta ! tumi janta eta j ami tmk thik tmr motoi valobashtam? janta mone hoy . . karon beche thakte oshnkhobar ami tmk ai kotha ta bolechi . .bolechi na? ami jani ami bolechi . . kokhno birokto hota na ai kotha gula shune ? protidin aki kothai to boltam . .amar tmk lagbe..amar tmk dorkar . . ami tmk onek valobashi . .ami tmkk chara thakte parchi na. . tumi khali amar . . r karo na ... pura tai .. shob shomoy. . ekdom . .... ... ki chelemanushi ami korechi na tmr sathe ? kom kore hole mone hoy lokkhobar ami tmk ai kotha gula bolechi . .shotti kore boloto .. . ekbaro birokto hou nai ? ?

amar majhe majhe khub icha hoto tmk chere chole jete... . .ekdom chere chole jete na . . kichukhoner jonno chere chole jete... dekhte icha korto tumi amake koto valobasho . .kivave bhalobasho . .kintu eta onek jontronadayok . .er jonno kori nai. . rag korcho ? please rego na. . tumi promise korsila amar upor kokhno rag korba na. . .mone ase? mone thakari kotha . . amar shob kotha tmr mone ase ami jani .. . amar likha protita chithir protita line tmr mone ache ami atao jani . . amar golpo gulao tmr mone ache ami jani . . ami jani amar tmk mone thakbe .. ar ami eo jani diaryr ai page ta tumi atokhone kom kore holeo 15 bar porso .. ebar pora bondho korba please? karon tmr chokher panite amar ai favorite diary tar page gula vije jache . . jeta ami chai na . . ""

ami diary ta bondho kore pash firlam. . or diary tar boyosh ajke pray 5 bochor . . amar pashe amar 5 years er meye ta amar hath ta akre dhore ghumay ache . .oro ki eki bhoy hoche or mayer moto j ami ok chere chole jabo ? kokhnoi na. . ami kokhno kaoke chere jai ni . . ami kivave amar jibon k chere jete parbo ?